another year has passed..

I've felt a strange urge to re-visit this blogspace lately and when i finally got around to it i see that the last post was written by him.
It makes me sadder still knowing you felt this way and took so long to act on it, to leave her and to focus on just me again, took you so long to say that you love me..
We've remained friends and in contact as you wished.. yet we're still not where I want to be. I'm still waiting and now i'm just even more confused as to why i'm waiting when you've felt that way for so long..
Yeah it did end badly.. it ended really  badly. But we began to acquaint ourselves with the new us. I'm no longer the same girl i used to be.. and you're no longer the same boy. We've matured and grown and have come to know what we want in our lives. so i can confidently say..
I. want. you... even though we've been apart for over a year.. there's been no one else for me..
i've known for a long time that you were someone who i was going to play a big role in my life

I can only hope and wish that you feel the same way.. and if you do, that you'll once again ask me to be yours.

we spend almost everyday together but its not the same.. I miss you. I need you to show me that you miss me too.. not as a friend.. not as that special girl.. but as your girlfriend...