First post of 2012..

Autumn leaves have fallen, Winter is approaching. At a station i stand .. More lonely than ever. Recalling the last four years. The good and the bad. The good and the bad .. It got very bad. What am i to do? I still want you in my life. Still need you in my life. Need you so much, need you so bad. Im stubborn this way .. Putting you through the motions. I really hope you reconsider. Its so painful this way. Memories .. There were so many .. I fucked it up for the both of us. I know you'll probably never see this. This post thats so hard to write. I just wish .. I just wish that even though we're not together And that you'll probably never will forgive. I do wish we just communicate .. Be more than acquaintences. Be a little more friendly. I just want to see you smile a little. See that you are well. That you are looking after yourself. Honestly, i care so much for you. Even if you beg to differ. Im missing you so much. I hate this part right here. I still do have feelings for you .. I do still love you.