Hey Guys..
i'm blogging a very lonely blog tonight... i just got back from the airport after seeing Nam off... I'm going to miss him so much... I'm not going to hear from him... How will i know if he got there safely?...how will he contact me if he's troubled?... what if he gets sick?.. I say all this but the truth is.. I need him more than he needs me =(... I dont like being apart from him... he's so far away now.. I can't call him just to hear his voice.. can't message him to see what he's up to..if he's thinking about me or not... I wish i could re-do our farewell... I was so out of it... I'm so sorry Nam.. If i could re-do it.. I wouldn't have cried when i wasn't suppose to... I would've seen you off with a smile saying 'Take care' and 'Have fun'...maybe even a 'Come back to me safely'.... but no... i was too frozen to say anything... i should've hugged you that much tighter.. said 'I Love You'...gave you a kiss and waved you off with a smile... I'm sorry i couldn't do that for you.... it was just..such abrupt parting.. i knew it was coming but still... i dont like that you're so far away.. i feel so incomplete now.. so vulnerable.. who'll be there to laugh at me when i do something stupid now? =( even though i gave you a bad farewell...even though i'll miss you terribly... i still wish you have a safe and fun holiday. Make lots of new friends and make heaps of good memories... I'm sure you'll have lots of stories for me when you get back =) I love you so much hon.. take care of yourself... come back quick =) i'm here waiting for you...
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